“None of this matters”

Lately there has been a random though floating around in my brain. I don’t know why it’s there, I don’t know if it should be there. I keep thinking “None of this matters”.Why I think this I don’t understand. I don’t know how to make this thought go away and what to do with it.

Every now and then it will appear. I don’t give it permission, I don’t welcome it in. It is just there and then it goes. Just this single thought.

When I think this thought, I think, “none of this matters” It refers to life. All these little things we care about, all these little things, they don’t actually matter.

But it is like I hit the end of a road. The thought is there, then it’s gone.