“None of this matters”

Lately there has been a random though floating around in my brain. I don’t know why it’s there, I don’t know if it should be there. I keep thinking “None of this matters”.Why I think this I don’t understand. I don’t know how to make this thought go away and what to do with it.

Every now and then it will appear. I don’t give it permission, I don’t welcome it in. It is just there and then it goes. Just this single thought.

When I think this thought, I think, “none of this matters” It refers to life. All these little things we care about, all these little things, they don’t actually matter.

But it is like I hit the end of a road. The thought is there, then it’s gone.


I know what to say. It is just a universal rule, an ancient tradition passed on. I don’t mean to, none of us do…but sometimes something seeps out. It shows on our faces or in our actions or words. It shows people that we are not okay. “Hey are you okay?” They ask “you seem a bit down…”

We all know what to say, we are taught. “I’m fine” We say, faking a smile, covering the ugly. But what if we didn’t say that? What if we told them that we are not okay and give them all the reasons why. Because sometimes we are not okay, so why do we lie. Why do we say ‘fine’ when someone is trying to help?

I am not one to talk. I will write this blog post and try to get other people to change, spreading some kind of message whatever the hell it may be. I will encourage people to be better, accept help…but I won’t bother changing what I say. I will continue to say “fine” or “just tired” I will fake a smile. I probably won’t change but I might. One day I might just tell them. Whatever may be on my mind. So if they catch me, if they see it on my face, in my actions or hear it in my words I might tell them. But I probably won’t. It is dangerous to break the universal rule.

Dear Fat People…

It is easy to have power in the media, to be able to control what people think, Negativity id spread like wildfire. We shouldn’t spread negativity to fight negativity, we should spread positivity. This can be the new wildfire.

Today I saw the video…”Dear Fat People.” I have so many mixed emotions.
There are so many things I want to say the words aren’t coming properly.

It’s crazy how much power someone can have…and how easy it comes these days. There is the President, There are rich people…
But all it takes to change peoples lives for good or bad, is someone talking to a camera and posting it online, they could type it up…but all it takes is a couple of followers and the race begins. It can all spread like wildfire, and the negative spreads the most.

Some of you may be wondering what I am talking about, well, 10 moths ago (woah I am a tad late on this one) a video was uploaded to YouTube called “Dear Fat People.” In this video she claims that fat people deserve to be shamed. I am not going to leave a link to this video because this woman has gotten 12 million views on this video and is earning a mass amount of money by fat shaming. Watching this video is your choice, and your choice alone.

I watched this video and I was so angry, I felt so disgusted and horrified at the thought that someone is making thousands by making people feel this way and feeding the immoral society. I was about to share this video to my friends, I wanted to show them how disgusting this was. Then the anger stopped. I realised that shaming her wouldn’t fix the situation, shaming her and telling her my opinions wouldn’t fix it. We shouldn’t spread negativity to fight negativity, we should spread positivity. This can be the new wildfire. 

After I watched this video I watched another, this was by a different person. There are heaps of positive parody’s to this video, it made me realise that no matter how much negativity is in this world, there is always some positivity.

With all this being said it is equally important to address the fact that Obesity is common and does kill people. But this is no different to any other disease. This is a complety irrelevant example but imagine you have a cold some form of sickness…now imagine everyone shaming you, telling you you don’t fit in because of this….does it help? The answer is no. What does help is getting some support, people giving you the education and help you need to get you better.
Support instead of shame. 


Love everyone the way you would want to be loved.

Thank you very much for reading. I would love for you to share your opinions whatever they may be in the comments. I would just like you all to know that I do not get paid for this blog, I am not sponsored nor do I get paid for adds being put on my website, sharing this post will not benefit me or give me money. That being said please share this post and spread this message. We need to work together to accomplish a better mindset as a society.

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…It’s 1:20 am…i guess that’s when I finally start thinking…

The Mask

Just to ruin your fun on the first sentence I would like you all to know that when I talk about this mask I am not talking about the green Jim Carrey mask or anything, this is strictly metaphorical.

Everyone wheres a mask.
The put it on and off for people, change masks for other people.
The mask can automatically change with your mood, how people treat you and whether or how much you care about the situation.
Your mask hides what you really feel. Your true emotions.

What I mean by mask is that you change around other people. In a lot of situations in life this is really, really important. At a job, meeting and in class, you need to act professional and work hard. But when you change in front of people to “fit-in” or be “popular” the mask becomes poison.

Let me ask you these questions:
Does it make you happy to act differently to “fit-in”?
Do you like hanging out with these people?
Will these people change your life positively?
or are you just wearing a mask.

I like to think of myself who gave up wearing a mask. I like to think that I don’t  care about what people think. Is that true? I don’t know, sometimes. Sometimes I don’t even know if my mask is on or not. Who am I really? Maybe I try so hard to take my mask off and not care and be free that I put on a whole new mask all together. 

This is just a time in your life. These are people not judges to design your fate…let go of the mask.

True or False?

We have us.

We have our body then we have our mind.

Lots of stuff happens in our mind but mostly we focus on whats happening with our body.

We judge our size, our shape, hair, face, but we never take into consideration what is happening in our minds. A lot is happening in our minds and we never pay any attention to it.

There are rational thoughts and irrational thoughts.

True and false.

Often referred to as Anxiety.

There are the thoughts and fears that keep us from doing something stupid and there are thoughts and fears that keep us from doing something we love.

For example, Once upon a time there was Me and Me was on a camp. At the camp there was an activity, the activity was practically a pole in the air, the size of a power line pole thingy.You attach a safety vest and some ropes to you and climb up a ladder and walk across the pole. Me sat there waiting for Me’s turn. She really wanted to do it and she looked up at it thinking “You can do this this is easy”. Me was confident, even excited about the activity. She new she was capable of it. She had run, jumped and balanced across logs that were slippery and wet harder than this when they were on the ground.

Me was about to go up onto the pole, as she was climbing the ladder she suddenly stopped, she froze and said “I can’t do it”. The camp assistant was understanding, she said “it’s okay, it happens all the time.” The camp leader gave Me some time she let her go higher and hoist her down but Me couldn’t do it. Me was capable to do it, the only thing stopping her was the height. Something told her not to go up. Me wanted to and she knew she could.

This was FALSE. It was irrational. It was’t real.

You won’t be able to stop the lier the false thought telling you no but you will be able to seperate it from reality.

Next time you have a thought telling you no, detect it and see if its rational or irrational.

Real or not real.

True or false. 

Thank you for reading, keep smiling, keep scrolling.

Art that paints itself

Every morning I wake up at 6:00. Every morning I see the sun rise. The thing I love about it is that every time it is unique. Every day there is a different sunrise.

It is like a painting without an artist. The painting paints itself. Purple, red, orange, blue, pink, gray, yellow. The colours aren’t like the colours you see painted on a regular painting. These aren’t like the paints you can by at an art store. The paintings I see every morning paint themselves. They reflect on the water, the blend into each other, if I’m lucky I’ll get mist.

I could go on my phone. I could look away…but I don’t. Every morning I see a painting that paints itself. I could Google sunrises, but it’s there, right in front of me.

The most beautiful art to me is not one painted my the women and men in an art studio, although I love that, the most beautiful art to me is the art that makes itself.

The most beautiful things are right in front of you so look up. Put down your phone and admire the real world instead of the thumbprint world.

The the world with no filters, no likes, no follows. See the real world.

We spend so much time absorbed in technology that we forget that the only way we are going to be happy is to live life instead of liking, commenting and sharing other’s.

The most beautiful things are right in front of you, so look up.

Dead Dreams

There are times when I am definite. 

There are times when I feel certain. 

And there are times when I am not so sure. 

Times when I doubt. 

I doubt myself, I doubt my chances, I doubt my future. 

Sometimes I wish to decide upon another dream, one that won’t be so hard to pursue.

There are voices inside everybody’s head. Voices to tell you to give up, to stop, to quit. We let those voices make a sound. We let those voices control us. We listen to them. Most of the time we act upon the voices.

When you have a dream and a goal try your hardest, a lot of people will tell you that you can’t.

Sometimes your chances are low, and it doesn’t seem possible that you are going to make it.

I have a dream and sometimes I am definite that that’s what I want to achieve.

I have a dream and there are times when I feel certain that I can make it.

I have a dream and there are times when I am not so sure.

Times when I doubt. 

I doubt myself, I doubt my chances, I doubt my future. 

When you have a wish, a dream, a goal, don’t change it. It is you dream because it’s what you really want to do and it’s what will make you happy.

There are voices inside everybody’s head and those voices will never go away. The only thing we can do about those voices is ignore them, pretend they aren’t there. Don’t let the voices be heard. Those voices aren’t reality, they just trick you into thinking they are.

When you have a dream and a goal try your hardest, don’t let anyone tell you to quit, even yourself.

Even if your chances are low give it a go (loving the rhyme) because when you quit you have no chance.

Plastic People

They talk different. They move different. Their laughter is forced. Their hair is perfect. They chose sides. They choose people. The people they have chosen they use. They judge. They never change. They pretend to be happy. They put on a face. They make you do their dirty work. They judge you for not looking a certain way. They are plastic. 

We live in a world were there is a lot of fake. People only see the part of you that you want them to see. Being who you are sometimes isn’t how you get popular. They pretend to be someone else to look good.

I don’t want to be one of those people. One of those people who pretend. One of the people who are not themselves. They are so pathetic. Does it make them happy? Being someone else to be liked. I want to feel loved because I am myself. So when I feel like saying something weird, blunt, crazy, I just do it, I don’t care what people think. They can be plastic but at least I can be real. 

Don’t change who you are for other people. Those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind. The people who are worth it won’t care how weird I am.

Keep smiling, keep scrolling.

The Internet Reality

I am doing tests in school and I realised that there is something new about this year. Halfway through the test I had a huge urge to get up and run around and talk to people and exercise. Long story cut short: The reason for this is because I am addicted to my devices (Geez, put it too them strait much). On  social medial,  I post and talk to people on there everyday, even when I am not posting on my blog I am still answering emails and working on my site. The Internet is a big part of who I am and what I do, and I never think about what it is doing to my brain. I have a short attention and focus time, simply because I spend way too much time on screens.

Obviously I am committed and dedicated to my website and I love what I do so I am not going to stop going online completely. All I want to do is make sure that I am setting my priorities right and living in the real world. I have a few strategies that I will use to stop my Internet addiction:

  • Only go online when I am either working or studying.
  • Spend only half an hour a day online doing something not work related.
  • Think about how much time I spend online and how much time I actually need to spend on there.

When I feel down or when I need to do something I go to the online world and escape. I makes me forget about reality and go in the world where everything is perfect. Like is milkshakes, views, traveling, fun, friends, perfect hair, skinny people and the weather is always good. We are all stuck in this vertial reality were everything is fake. One of my favourite things about my blog is that I can be real. I don’t put on a face or lie about how I feel. I can give advice and explain my thoughts and emotions towards the world. In my corner of the internet the world is real, buzzing with life.

I know that I can be real with you and you can be real with me. Let’s create a place on the Internet where we are ourselves, instead of being someone else.

Keep smiling, keep scrolling.


I have a new Q & A for you guys! I have no words so lets skip my annoying long intro’s. Here we go:

~ Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? I sleep with them closed but I am not one of those people who cares an awful lot about the monsters in there, they are my friends.

~ Do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? Yes, and I always get the cute little soaps and I use the stuff for traveling, but everywhere I travel has their own shampoo & condition bottles and their own soaps so……

~ Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? Actually I sleep with them tucked in at the bottom of the bed and out at my torso. The reason of this being I get cold feet really easily and I absolutely hate cold feet. I have them out at the top because it takes me ages to go to sleep and I sleep really restlessly so I move around heaps. Okay…that took ages even though no one cares about that question.

~ Have you ever stolen a street sign? Umm. Yeah. Coz apparently that’s a thing people do. It’s like, “Hey Bobby, what do you wanna do?” And Bobby says “Hmmm. You know what? Let’s steal a street sign….That’s so CoOOoOl!!!!!” And you’re like “Woah! yeah! That is so ReBelll!!!!!“. Like, Wtf am I gonna do with a street sign?! Yeah, the answer is no in case you were wondering.

~ Do you cut out coupons and then never use them? Yeah. I’m all like Woah! This is sosoosos cool! My life is like #goals! This is gonna be great. Then it gets lost at the bottom of my wallet.

~ Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? Okay, so this is either die or have temporary excruciating pain….BEE’S.

~ Do you always smile for pictures? Most casual pictures with friends or if people take pictures of me but some times I do this model thing where I look away and I’m like all pretty and perfect and I pretend where there isn’t a big camera in front of my face. So “Mediocre”. Woah! I love that word! Mediocre. I have’t used that word in ages.

~ Do you ever count your steps when you walk? I waste my time on other stuff.

~ Have you ever peed in the woods? IT’S CALLED CAMPING PRINCESS! Ha lol TMI.

~ Do you still watch cartoons? Like I said, I waste my time on other stuff.

Tnx for reading. Please comment your thoughts and opinions. Have a great day. Stay in school. I dare you to smile for five minutes just because you are breathing.

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